So for those who don’t know me, I’m an extremely logical person. I feel things, obviously, and I’m very passionate about life and my opinions…but no matter how I may feel about things, my mind is extremely stubborn. My feelings need to have some rational explanation and if they don’t, well it’s pretty frustrating.
So, I have always believed myself to be someone who doesn’t really care about people because I thought that I loved conditionally. If you love conditionally, then you almost love rationally, there would be reasons why you love someone, it would make sense.
But I realized that, like my family always tells me, you can’t rationalize love, it just is. I HATE THAT! Honestly, think about it for a second, no matter what you do, no matter what you say, you could even change your entire personality tomorrow and there will be people who will still love you.
That makes no sense to me. I am a person who intentionally lives to try to be the best version of herself. If I suddenly decided to make crappy decisions, and if I suddenly decided that I was going to be a victim and live passively instead of actively, I find it hard to believe that I would still be loved. It’s an interesting concept to think about and despite all my weird rationalizations, it’s true: love isn’t and never will be rational. It’s souls who connect, it’s deeper than anything we can understand.
Oh, and to all of you out there who have a hard time believing in unconditional love, well, don’t worry, I strongly believe that if we keep striving to find answers, time and experience will teach us the truth of things.
Anyway, we aren’t loved for every little thing we do, we are loved for who we are. There is nothing we can say or do that can change that fact. As much as a lot of us may love control, well, here’s some bad news: we can’t control this.